Tired of the same day to day stuff that never change.. never change.. never change
having an extremely down day.. been by myself for almost all of it and in the mind set i don't wanna do this anymore..
ya see another day and another extreme mood swing. some days i can get control and other days I have no.. none.. nadda control. what happens??? is like a switch in my brain that flips on and off at will. I WANNA SCREAM.. be normal, have a normal life again.. be happy and live your life again!!
How can that happen? anybody? HELP ME!
Feeling extreme, tired, hurt, and both mentally and physically drained.. more than usual. I have therapy tomorrow but it is hard to go there as I feel not much progress is happening. was hoping to feel better more of the time but is coming so slow.. I have made some plans but unless i push push push they won't happen any time soon.. should i just take off?? should i stay and just accept things for what they are?
I feel crazy today.. out of control and agitated.. don't even have one reason for it either. it just comes over me and has it's way.. i have no choice until it decides it is done with me and throws me aside..back to reality.........................................
i spend too much time alone with my own thoughts.. not good at all. is really hard to make myself go places especially by myself so i usually don't. have become quite a hermit. I can be social and do enjoy it but have to be really pushed to make the first step.
anyways guess i will put exactly what goes on in my mind as no one is reading it but me anyways, right. Yes some days this helps me but today.. nope.. feels like a bunch of words getting tossed and lost in the universe.. the end.. Night!
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