I think my moods for the most part co inside with the weather and sunshine or lack of sunshine. Been really dreary today inside and out.. headaches are becoming more of a problem but i did something about it today.
I went and got myself a new pair of glasses in hopes that by seeing better my confidence for driving will return..and my headaches will go away.. I can hope, right?
I am trying really hard to scope out my future as i know i have one just not sure where or what it will be.. :(
This evening I'm setting here with my youngest son Erik (24) and my ornery grandson Jayden (4) and we are watching Thomas the Train and probably Towmater Tales for the 100th time..Being with both of them makes me feel pretty happy.
Some of the things that keep hope in my life are my 3 sons and 2 grand children. I am hoping to add more as time goes on.. i know there used to be alot more that made me happy.. somehow i lost them along the way and am working on getting them back.
I know my husband tries to understand what is happening to me but i guess unless u are right in my head it is hard to know what to do to help me. He is the one who bought me the glasses today and I love and thank him very much for that. I also hope he keeps believing in me but have already told him that if he cannot be beside me in this trip to wherever it is going with this mental illness I will do my best to understand and move on.
Not sure if he has made a decision on that yet but will give him time to decide.. just not a long time as i need to keep moving on be it with him-which I hope or without. A harsh reality but one i have to deal with as it comes. Enough deep thoughts for now...Time to get back to "Thomas & Towmater" and my 2 guys.. gotta enjoy them while i can even if it means watching this silly stuff.. until another day!!!
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